Today

This week is exuding craziness already and its not even half over!

All I have to say is drama drama drama. BLAH I wont get into detail but I will say that God is planning on turning some pretty ugly ashes into something that is fully beautiful and alive. He is working in me and showing me things that I have needed to see and face for a long long time. He is weeding the garden that is my heart and making sure that only roses and beauty remain.

(sigh) It's like spring coming out of a long hard winter and I have to laugh because it happens on a day where my body feels so physically ill but my soul cant stop singing.

Sometimes you just have to sit down and praise God saying, "This is my situation but you are bigger than my situation and because you are I am too! This is who I am and my situation does not define that YOU define that! These things that I have been carrying around on my shoulders, things that have been putting weight and pressure on my chest hindering me from breath, I relinquish all and give it to you because I am not strong enough independently. Only am I strong enough when you are walking with me in front and beside, carrying me through the storms and trials that the world brings. Jesus," I cry. "Jesus, you are all I need! Jesus, you are all I want and long for and love. It took me so long to get here but here I am, take me and mold me like the potter with his clay. Use me, Jesus. Use me."


Today is going to be a good day.