Blah Blah Blah and love

Good morning world of blogger people!

Today is going to be interesting. We are going to Trade days to do some last minute Fathers day shopping but I have to be back in town by 2 because I am on the worship team tonight. After that I am babysitting for the Dukes and hopefully than I can go home and get some much needed sleep.

A question for anyone who is still reading after that very boring first paragraph.

Is it possible to hate someone and love them at the same time?

Rationally I have to say no because in my book love and hate cannot co-exist they are conflicting emotions.

Than I have to ask myself the question- Is hate really the opposite of love?...or is it fear?

With the def. of love God gives us in the bible the answer of course would be no. You cannot hate and love the same person. Its not possible, so I guess I have my answer there.

But if you love someone and you cant stand some of the things they do and hate some of the things they stand for that doesnt mean you hate the actual person but their beliefs but that is such a HUGE part of a person...what they believe.

I believe in God. I believe in having a personal relationship with Him. I believe in prayer, it works, I have seen it. I dont believe in religion. Its pointless there is only one way period. I wont deny that others believe the same thing about their religion and beliefs but does believing something necessarily make it true? No. That is where faith steps in.

So you say that same line of reasoning can be turned back to my own beliefs...yes. Absolutely but in my case I have proof. Would it hold up under a scientists microscope...maybe...maybe not but for me its enough.


Okay so I have to be done rambling for now haha we are leaving.

Have a great day! :-)

Keep your legs warm and they wont grow hair

Today was loooooong! It was the last day of worship arts camp and I have got to say the kids really did an awesome job. Zuzu and I had 17 in all in our class. It wasn't the easiest week I have ever had but it was defiantly easier than I had expected.

Worst part of the day- the toilet overflowing.

Best part- The kids, unashamed, up on that stage worshiping God.

Second best part- collecting the cloths pins haha




Now it is 11:30 and I am still awake trying to come up with something to do on what is left of my Friday night.

Zuzu tattooed my back and now she is falling asleep...maybe I should join her.




I was going to make this a really really long post but I am going to cut it short because I really have to pee so goodnight entertaining world of blogger people.






Okay so I lied. I am going to hold it for a moment longer.

Please forgive me if this post is rubbish I am working on no sleep and have been going none stop for the last week. I am stressed tired and confused.

Jesus I need you right now. Tonight was so heart warming you manifested yourself in those kids. Everything we had been hoping and praying and working toward happened. You are amazing God...man, that word doesn't even do you justice.

I saw a bunch of kids walk in the door tired and defiant Monday morning and walk out Friday night changed, glowing, dancing and singing your praises.

A lot of times we walk away and deem it a success, thanking everyone involved, a lot of the time forgetting to thank the most important one of all. It was only a success because you showed up. We could have never have pulled it off without you.

Me personally. You know how much I struggle with patience but this week I seemed to have an abundance of it, enough to go around and share. You know I have such a heart for kids but know that I am a tough love kind of girl, you softened my heart this week and gave those babies just what they needed. A friend, a teacher, a sister, a crush, and most of all a Godly example.

You are just so cool. haha that sounds so lame but its true. From the little things like verses and songs to the big ones like worship arts camp with over 100 kids.

"Indescribable, uncontainable, awestruck I fall to my knees as i humbly proclaim; You are amazing God."

The next few months

There is nothing in this world that makes me feel so accomplished, as writing a song.

Started a new one today on the keys. :-)

Its really good. I don't say that about a lot of my songs but this one...this one is special.

I am babysitting for the Chesneys again tonight. Lately it seems like my whole world revolves around kids. I need a vacation.

Got the cutest new hot pink dress from Victoria secret! It has pockets!!! :-)

This summer its all about the cotton dresses for me. Love em.

Talked to him today...haha he made me smile. :-)

That's all for now. Its going to be an interesting next few months.

P.S.

Well tonight didnt go like I expected or even like I hoped.

Why cant love just be easy?

PS I love my aunt kim.

Pursue it or let it go

Okay so it is almost one in the morning, I am totally exhausted after this whirlwind of a weekend and I just walked through the door. I'm not gonna lie, sleep sounds pretty damn good right now but I need to blog some crap and know I am going to regret it if I wait.


SOOOOOOOO.....

Here it goes-

Saturday was fantastic. Lead worship in Kingdom Kids and the family abandoned me for the fair...which I really didnt feel like going to so I had a cookout with the girls instead. Red wine+skinny dipping makes for an interesting experience when your backyard is on display for the entire neighborhood. ;-)

....just for Tori---Yes they do float. haha

Having Zu spend the night is always an adventure. Oh beer.

Wow, this is turning into a very drunk post, I think, but its okay because I dont even like beer. (that was a whole lotta commas)

Sunday- got up way to stinking early to lead worship in Kingdom Kids (which went really well this weekend) and than my dad got home from Cali! Watched 27 dresses for the first time, jumped into the swimming pool and than went over to my aunt kims for dinner and dessert.

Watched the Chesneys kids with Zu for a few hours and than Kelly got home and we had a very deep conversation that included her telling me that I needed to follow my heart and just tell the guy how I felt... preferably with a picture of my boobs accompanied by a caption that read"yes or no". Love that woman.

My love life?

Honestly?

Well I had someone tell me that I need to pursue it or let it go and so that is exactly what I need to do.

Stayed tuned to see how well that works out for me.

For now I am falling asleep on the keys so that is a tell tale sign that this blog is pretty much over and done for.

Love you guys!
Peace.

PS worship arts camp at 8 tomorrow...I have 15 kids....wish me luck!