I know you love me

This weekend was just what I needed.

Church was amazing! The worship was so intense it felt like Wednesday night not Sunday morning. God is moving.

I have to apologize for being in this funky mood lately. Its just that I want to move on so bad! He has...he definitely has and all I want is to find someone to love like that again because once you have it and know what it feels like you never want to loose it.

Jesus just give me the strength to get through tomorrow without thinking about it. Where I am weak you are strong.

Zuzu you are my rock. I don't know what I would do without you. You don't know how many days I just wanted to sleep forever and sit in my self pity but you are always there cheering me on, even when you don't realize it. God knew what He was doing when He ordained this friendship. Thank you for putting up with all my b.s and laughing with me through the tears and all my sad stories. I love you.



Jesus I need you right now. I don't know why I have been having such a hard time of everything lately but I do know one thing I need you more now than I ever have. Please watch and guard over Adam, father I don't know what he is going through right now but I know if anything else he works a lot harder than any 21 year old I have ever met so please just calm his busy spirit and soothe his mind and his nerves. Just give him peace and please Lord I don't know if he is ever lonely like I am lonely but if he is would you really press close to him in those moments because I know its so hard when your alone and I don't ever want him to feel the way that I have felt.

Jesus watch over him and his family and walk beside him even when he doesn't want to acknowledge you're there. If I know anything about Adam its that he is very sensible and level headed, I pray that you just start revealing yourself to him daily in ways that only you can get the mention, honor and glory for.

Lord I know you had a plan for putting Adam and I together when you did and letting us go our separate ways but that doesn't make it any easier for me to accept. Please father just soften my heart to the sound of your voice because I need to hear you and lately I cant hear you at all and all I want to hear is your voice letting me know that everything is going to be okay, that there is nothing wrong with me. That there is nothing wrong with missing someone you love. You put these feeling in me for a reason and I don't know what that reason is but you know and your plans are a whole lot greater than mine.

I need you now and I want you here beside me because I am tired of trying to get over him on my own. I am tired of crying over him and missing him and quite honestly loving him and praying for him when it seems like what we had doesn't matter to him at all.

But you love me.

I know you love me so let me be content with that.

Just tired.

Jesus, I just want to forget him.

Just for tonight I am so tired of remembering and missing. I am so sick of wondering and wanting.

So please just for tonight make me forget he ever happened.

Please, just for tonight.

Its one of those days...lol its just one of those years. I am through with this.


and the saddest part of the story is I know I'm not because I really did love him....do love him.

Jesus Style

Wow, I am totally wiped out! The conference was life altering/amazing to the max, but it also tore me up. My legs hurt so bad I can hardly move and playing balloon pop with my family probably didn't help much either.

My voice? What voice? Brittany has a voice? Well you would have never guessed because currently all you here is breathy sighs and whispers. Fun? I think not. Not to mention I some how from somewhere acquired a cough and those guys aren't fun at all. No sirree, bob.

Tired-ness is my state of being right now, all I want to do is sleep forever and than wake up and miraculously its time for another conference. I love those things!

I guess its time for an update.

I don't even know how to begin writing this but I am going to try. My dad suffers from chronic pain from a variety of ailments. The newest of which was a diagnosis of adult onset asthma, which was making even the act of breathing difficult and painful. Well, following the Outcast conference Thursday night, Rex Crane prayed over him after being asked by my brother, Connor, to pray that God would heal our dad. Rex prayed over him in the foyer of the church, laying hands on him, and in front of the witness' there, God healed him!! Praise the Lord! His back and neck pain gone! His headache reduced drastically! His left side rib and scar tissue pain gone! His breathing problems gone! He prayed over his reflux and stomach problems and his lack of sleep. That night and the night after he slept without any reflux episodes. (He usually wakes up violently choking during the night) He is still having sleep apnea, but his sleep was much more peaceful. He is feeling good after 12 years of pain and anguish. Praise the Lord! The glory is His and His alone! I am claiming this healing in the name of Jesus. My dad is slightly reluctant, after so many years of suffering, to except this fully, that it will last. So I feel it is important to claim it, to shout it from the rooftops, to stand in faith believing that this reprieve is not temporary. I also am claiming and believing, in the name of Jesus, that the headaches will go away completely as will the sleep apnea. Nothing less than complete freedom, isn't that what we are promised!!!


If that wasn't enough my brother Colin was also healed from residual pain from his knee surgery, praise God!


Guys miracles are alive and they do happen!!! (Jesus Style ;-)

I have witnessed it! My family has seen it first hand. I also had a cousin who was having trouble with walking/running because of a soccor related injury and yes you guessed it she has also been fully healed!


God is doing some pretty amazing things out here in Prosper Texas and I am going to commit the rest of my life to making sure that it doesnt stop here.

I am going to move to Colorado in the fall, its where He is calling me and has been calling me for the last year. I am going to go to worship school and I am going to make the world fall in love with Jesus like I have or die trying.



brit

The Outcast Anthem

I am an outcast
A reject of society
Just like you were

Persecuted and abandoned
The world is gonna hate me
Like they hated you

But I'll stand for you
With the stance of an outcast
I'll stand for you

We're called to the kingdom
Imitators of God
The righteous and true

The generation of tomorrow
I rising up to follow and serve you

I'll follow you
With the heart of an outcast
Ill follow you

Ill stand for you
With the stance of an outcast
Ill stand for you

This is the anthem of the outcast
A song of the redeemed
Sing it I am not the same
I am not the same

Whoa Whoa
Whoa Whoa
Sing it I am not the same
I am not the same

A Blog

Tonight? I cant even write about it, I cant even describe it, I cant... I just cant.

Jesus is---

Wow. In awe, in shock, in wonder, this is me amazed truly... truly amazed. I say it all the time but I really don't ever give enough power to that word... GOSH that word doesn't even begin to describe it!

If you are a human being this is for you.

You are beautiful, you are loved, you are cherished, you are precious and adored. Someone wants to hold you, someone wants to spend time with you, someone wants to listen to every little thing that's on your mind, someone wants to fill your empty places...the ones that you don't think anyone knows about....the places that hurt so bad they make you ache and cry and feel depressed... the emptiness that makes you want to be someone else...anyone else....or no one at all.

Can I tell you something?

There is someone who follows you around all the time dancing and singing over you... all around you. Someone who follows you around in awe of the person that you are and are going to be. Someone who thinks your beautiful.

Someone who thinks your beautiful.


Someone who thinks your beautiful.


Someone who thinks your beautiful.

Look up. He has great plans for you. He has great plans for your future and for your present!


Jesus says that you are beautiful. Jesus says where your heart is there your treasure is too. Jesus calls us his treasure, so you know what that says to me?

Jesus loves you and me more than anything else in this universe! He is so in love with you He sings to you, He dances over you!

Hear that. Receive it and believe it.

Today

This week is exuding craziness already and its not even half over!

All I have to say is drama drama drama. BLAH I wont get into detail but I will say that God is planning on turning some pretty ugly ashes into something that is fully beautiful and alive. He is working in me and showing me things that I have needed to see and face for a long long time. He is weeding the garden that is my heart and making sure that only roses and beauty remain.

(sigh) It's like spring coming out of a long hard winter and I have to laugh because it happens on a day where my body feels so physically ill but my soul cant stop singing.

Sometimes you just have to sit down and praise God saying, "This is my situation but you are bigger than my situation and because you are I am too! This is who I am and my situation does not define that YOU define that! These things that I have been carrying around on my shoulders, things that have been putting weight and pressure on my chest hindering me from breath, I relinquish all and give it to you because I am not strong enough independently. Only am I strong enough when you are walking with me in front and beside, carrying me through the storms and trials that the world brings. Jesus," I cry. "Jesus, you are all I need! Jesus, you are all I want and long for and love. It took me so long to get here but here I am, take me and mold me like the potter with his clay. Use me, Jesus. Use me."


Today is going to be a good day.

AAAAAAHA!

So I am feeling pretty puffed up and proud of myself because I have totally mastered the world of blogging. Now I'll admit it...it took me awhile to figure it out but I did and now...well now I have bragging rights and the courage to conquer the world!!!!


Ehem...sorry. Little carried away there.

Commence bragging-

Poo poo world of bloggers,poo poo.


And I will never admit that it took me till 2:30 in the morning to figure it all out. Nope never will.

I bid thee adieu.

brit